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In the last year, I’ve had a lot of changes. I graduated from college. I turned 30. I started my new career. Two of my grandparents passed away within about 2 months of each other. I went from being married to being divorced, and am now a single mom. I’m living with my brother and his wife and now I’m looking at buying my own place. I have cried more in the last year than I thought was possible. I have also had more to celebrate this year than I could have thought possible. One year ago I celebrated my 30th Birthday and finishing my college education with the man in this photo. The man I thought I’d spend my life with. For about 6 months I cried because that was no longer the case. I looked at my “On this day” on Facebook and this photo popped up. A couple months ago, I would have been sobbing uncontrollably. Today I saw this photo and… Well… I think I felt nothing. No anger. No sadness. No pain. I don’t look at this and remember all the happy memories, but I look at it and what is beautiful is that I no longer feel pain when I see memories of me with my ex. That is a beautiful thing, when the hurt goes away and you can start to see the light again. I feel light in my life in so many ways.

This time last year I had much to be thankful for. Despite all the losses I’ve experienced in the last year, I still have a lot to be thankful for now. I was celebrating 30 and graduated. Now I get to celebrate 31, single, and buying a house.

Life is good. I will keep working hard, and trusting in God’s grace to get me through every day. I cannot believe how many big ticket changes I’ve experienced in the last 365 days, and today I feel totally at peace. That is only possible because of my faith. If I leaned on my own abilities, I quite possibly would have ended having a serious mental breakdown. Not only am I still standing, but I am thriving.

Sincerely,

Struggling Bonnie